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Just allow life to take you wheresoever it leads you and don't be afraid
Posted by OWF    Monday, December 04, 2017 at 13:07


A really sensitive man enjoys life so much that the very enjoyment cools and calms him down. He has no obsessions. He is sensual.

And if you ask me, a Buddha is more sensual than anybody else. He has to be because he is so alive. When Buddha looks at the trees, he must be seeing more colors than you can see; his eyes are more sensitive, sensual. When a Buddha eats, he must be enjoying more than you can enjoy because everything within him is functioning perfectly. You can hear, if you pass near a Buddha, the humming of a perfectly functioning mechanism, like the humming of a perfectly functioning car. Everything is going absolutely as it should go. He is sensitive, he is sensual, but there is no indulgence. How can indulgence be? - indulgence is a disease, indulgence is an imbalance. But to you I dont say this; I say, Indulge and be finished with it. Dont carry it in your head. Thats worse than doing it.

Indulge! If you want to indulge in food, indulge. Maybe through indulgence you will come to your right senses. Maybe through indulgence you will come to a ripeness, a maturity that says that it is foolish.

I remember Gurdjieff reporting that he had a liking for a certain berry type fruit. It is found in the Caucasus, and it had always been bad for him. Whenever he would take it, his stomach would be disturbed: pains and aches and nausea and everything. But he liked the fruit so much that it was impossible not to eat it. After a few days he would eat it, again and again. He reports, My father went to the market one day, took me with him and bought a large quantity of the fruit. I was very happy and surprised - why is he buying them? He has always been against it. He had always told me never to eat it. What has happened? What a good father! When Gurdjieff was only nine years old, his father took a stick in his hand and he said, You eat the whole lot. Otherwise, I will beat you to death. And he was a dangerous man. Tears were flowing and Gurdjieff was eating, and he had to eat the whole lot. He vomited, but his father was a very, very hard man. He vomited, and for three weeks he was ill with dysentery, vomiting and fever. Then the fruit finished. He said, Even now that I am sixty years of age, if I come across the fruit my whole body shakes. I cannot even look at the fruit!

The indulgence created such a deep understanding, to the very roots of the body. I say to you, Go and indulge. Nothing is wrong with indulgence. If you really indulge and dont withhold yourself, you will come out of it more mature. Otherwise, the indulgence, the idea, will always persist - it will haunt you, it will become a ghost. People who take the vow of celibacy are always haunted by the ghost of sex. People who try to be in any type of control are always haunted by the idea of indulgence, of breaking all bounds, disciplines and controls and running headlong into it.

Just allow life to take you wheresoever it leads you and dont be afraid. Fear is the only thing one should be afraid of, nothing else. Move! Be courageous and daring, and I tell you that, by and by, the very experience of indulgence, sensuality, will calm you down. You will become centered.

But I am for sensitivity. Even if it brings indulgence, even if it brings sensuality, its okay. I am not afraid of indulgence and sensuality. I am afraid of only one thing: that the fear of indulgence and sensuality may kill your sensitivity. If it is killed, you have committed suicide. Sensitive, you are alive, aware; the more sensitive, the more alive and aware. And when your sensitivity becomes total, you have entered the Divine.

Yoga: The Alpha and the Omega Vol. 4, Ch2, Q 4