LISTEN TO OSHO SPEAK ON THIS MEDITATION
YOUR ENTIRE CONSCIOUSNESS IN THE VERY START OF DESIRE, OF KNOWING,
The basic thing about this technique is ENTIRE CONSCIOUSNESS. If you
can bring your entire consciousness to anything, it will become a
transforming force. The transformation happens whenever you are entire
in it -- in anything. But that is difficult, because wherever we are,
we are only there in part, never in entirety.
You are here listening to me. This very listening can become a transformation.
If you are entirely here, this very moment here and now, if listening
is your entirety, that listening will become a meditation: you will
enter a different realm of ecstasy, a separate reality. But you are
not entire. That is the problem with the human mind, it is always
partial. A part is listening. Other parts may be somewhere else, or
may be asleep, or may be thinking about what is being said, or arguing
inside. That creates a division and division is a dissipation of energy.
So when doing anything bring your entire being to it. When you are
not holding anything back, not even a minor part is separate, when
you have taken a jump, total, whole, your whole being has come into
it, then any act becomes meditative.
It is reported that one day Rinzai was working in his garden --
Rinzai was a Zen master -- and somebody approached. The man had come
to ask some philosophical questions. He was a philosophical seeker.
He didn't know that the man who was working in the garden was Rinzai
himself. He thought he must be a gardener, a servant, so he asked,
"Where is Rinzai?" Rinzai said,"Rinzai is always here."
Of course, the man thought that this gardener seemed to be mad because
he said that Rinzai was always here. So he thought it would not be
good to ask anything of this man again and he started moving off to
ask someone else. Rinzai said, "Don't go anywhere, because you
will not find him anywhere. He is always here." But he escaped
from this madman.
Then he inquired from others and they said, "The first man you
met is Rinzai." So he came back and said, "Forgive me, I
am sorry, I thought you were mad. I have come to inquire about something.
I want to now what truth is. What should I do to know it?" Rinzai
said, "Do whatsoever you want to do, but do it entirely."
The point is not what you do, that is irrelevant. The point is
that you do it entirely.
example," Rinzai said, "when I am digging this hole in the
earth, my entirely is there in the act of digging. There is no Rinzai
left behind. The whole has gone into the digging. Really there is
no digger left, only the digging. If the digger is left, then you
are listening to me. If the listener is left, then you are not entire.
If there is only listening and there is no listener left behind you
are entire, here and now. Then this very moment becomes a meditation.
In this sutra Shiva says, WITH YOUR ENTIRE CONSCIOUSNESS IN THE VERY
START OF DESIRE, OF KNOWING, KNOW. If a desire arises within you,
Tantra doesn't say to fight it. That is futile. No one can fight a
desire. It is foolish also, because whenever you start fighting with
something within you, you are fighting with yourself, you will become
schizophrenic, your personality will be split. And all these so-called
religions have helped humanity to by and by become schizophrenic.
Everybody is split, everybody is divided and fighting with himself
because so-called religions have told you, "This is bad. Don't
do this." If the desire comes, what to do? You go on fighting
with the desire. Tantra says don't fight the desire. But that doesn't
mean that you become a victim of it. That doesn't mean that you indulge
in it. Tantra gives you a very subtle technique. When desire arises,
be alert just at the beginning with your entirety. Look at it with
your entirety. Become the look. Don't leave the looker behind. Bring
your total consciousness to this arising desire. This is a very subtle
method, but wonderful. Miraculous are its effects.
things have to be understood. Firstly, when desire has already arisen
you cannot do anything. Then it will take its full course, it will
complete its circle, and you cannot do anything. Just in the beginning
something can be done -- the seed should be burned then and there.
Once the seed has sprouted and the tree has started growing, it is
difficult, almost impossible, to do something. Whatsoever you do will
create more anguish, dissipation of energy, frustration, weakness.
When the desire arises, just at the beginning, just at the first glimpse,
the first flicker that a desire is arising, bring your total consciousness,
the entirety of your being to look at it. Don't do anything. Nothing
else is needed. With the entire being the look is so fiery that the
seed is burned, with no struggle, with no conflict, with no antagonism.
Just a deep look with the entire being and the arriving desire disappears
completely. And when a desire disappears without a fight, it leaves
you so powerful, with such immense energy, with such tremendous awareness,
you cannot imagine it. If you fight, you will be defeated. Even if
you are not defeated and you defeat the desire, that too will amount
to the same thing. No energy will be left. You will feel frustrated
whether you win or get defeated. In both cases you will be weak in
the end, because the desire was fighting with your energy and you
were fighting with the same energy. The energy was coming from the
same source, you were taking from the same source -- so the source
will be weakened whatsoever the result. But if the desire disappears
just in the beginning, without any conflict -- remember, this is basic
-- without any fight, with just a look, not even an antagonistic look,
not even with a mind to destroy, with no enmity, just a total look,
in the intensity of that total look the seed is burnt. And when the
desire, arising desire, disappears, just like smoke in the sky, you
are left with tremendous energy -- that very energy is bliss. That
will give you a beauty of its own, a grace.
so-called saints who are fighting their desires are always ugly. When
I say ugly, I mean they are always mean, fighting. Their whole personality
becomes graceless. And they are always weak, always lacking energy,
because all their energy is used up in the inner fight. A Buddha is
totally different. And the grace that has come to Buddha's personality
is the grace of desires disappearing without any struggle or fight,
without any inner violence.
YOUR ENTIRE CONSCIOUSNESS IN THE VERY START OF DESIRE, OF KNOWING,
KNOW. In that very moment simply know, look, see. Don't do anything.
Nothing else is needed. All that is needed is that your total being
should be there present. Your total presence is needed. This is one
of the secrets of achieving the ultimate enlightenment without any
violence. And remember, you cannot enter into the kingdom of God with
violence. No, those doors shall never open for you, howsoever much
you knock. Knock and go on knocking. You may break your head but those
doors will never open. But for those who deep inside are non-violent
and not fighting with anything, those doors are always open, they
were never closed. Jesus said, "Knock and the doors shall be
opened unto you." I say to you that there is no need even to
knock. Look, the doors are open. They have always been open. They
were never closed. Just take a deep look, entire, total, whole.