LISTEN TO OSHO SPEAK ON THIS MEDITATION
"CONSIDER YOUR ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS RISING
FROM CENTER TO CENTER UP THE VERTEBRAE, AND SO RISES `LIVINGNESS'
Many yoga methods are based on this. First understand what it is;
then the application. The vertebrae, the spine, is the base of both
your body and mind. Your mind, your head, is the end part of your
spine. The whole body is rooted in the spine. If the spine is young,
you are young. If the spine is old, you are old. If you can keep your
spine young, it is difficult to become old. Everything depends on
your spine. If your spine is alive, you will have a very brilliant
mind. If the spine is dull and dead, you will have a very dull mind.
The whole yoga tries in many ways to make your spine alive, brilliant,
filled with light, young and fresh.
spine has two ends: the beginning is the sex center and the end is
SAHASRARA, the seventh center at the top of the head. The beginning
of the spine is attached to the earth, and sex is the most earthly
thing in you. From the beginning center in your spine you are in contact
with nature, with what Sankhya has called PRAKRATI -- the earth, the
material. From the last center, or the second pole, SAHASRAR, in the
head, you are in contact with the divine. These are the two poles
of your existence. First is sex and second is the SAHASRAR. There
is no word for SAHASRAR in English. These are the two poles. Either
your life will be sex oriented or SAHASRAR oriented. Either your energy
will be flowing down from the sex center back to the earth, or your
energy will be released from the SAHASRAR into the cosmos. From the
SAHASRAR you flow into the BRAHMAN, into the absolute Existence. From
sex you flow down into the relative existence. These are the two flows,
the two possibilities. Unless you start flowing upwards, your misery
will never end. You may have glimpses of happiness, but only glimpses
-- and very illusory ones.
the energy starts moving upwards you will have more and more real
glimpses. And once it reaches the SAHASRAR and is released from there,
you will have the absolute bliss with you. That is NIRVANA. Then there
is no glimpse; you become the bliss itself. So the whole thing for
yoga and tantra is how to move energy upwards through the vertebrae,
through the spinal column, how to help it move against gravity. Sex
is very easy because it follows gravitation. The earth is pulling
everything down, back; your sex energy is pulled by the earth. You
may not have heard it, but astronauts have felt this -- that the moment
they move beyond the earth's gravity they don't feel much sexuality.
As the body loses weight, sexuality dissolves, disappears.
earth is pulling your life energy down and this is natural, because
the life energy comes from the earth. You eat food and you are creating
life energy within you; it comes from the earth, and the earth is
pulling it back. Everything goes to its source. And if it continues
to move in this way, life energy going back again and again, and you
are moving in a circle, you will go on moving for lives and lives.
You can go on moving this way infinitely unless you take a jump just
like the astronauts. Like the astronauts, you have to take a jump
and move beyond the circle. Then the pattern of earth's gravitation
is broken. It can be broken!
techniques for how it can be broken are here -- for how the energy
can move vertically and rise up within you, reaching new centers;
for how new energies can be revealed within you, making you a new
person with every move. And the moment the energy is released from
your SAHASRAR, the opposite pole of sex, you are no more man. Then
you don't belong to this earth; you have become divine. That is what
is meant when we say Krishna is God or Buddha is God. Their bodies
are just like yours -- their bodies will have to fall ill and they
will have to die -- everything happens in their bodies as it happens
to you. Only one thing is not happening in their bodies which is happening
to you: the energy has broken the gravitation pattern.
that you cannot see, it is not visible to your eyes. But sometimes
when you are sitting by the side of a Buddha, you can feel this. Suddenly
you feel an upsurge of energy within you, and your energy starts moving
upwards. Only then do you know that something has happened. Just by
being in contact with a buddha your energy begins to move upwards
towards the SAHASRAR. A buddha is so powerful that even the earth
is less powerful; it cannot pull your energy downwards. Those who
have felt this around a Jesus, a Buddha, a Krishna, have called them
God. They have a different source of energy which is stronger than
can the pattern be broken? This technique is very useful for breaking
the pattern. First understand something basic. One, if you have observed
at all you must have observed that your sex energy moves with imagination.
Just through imagination your sex center starts functioning. Really,
without imagination it cannot function. That is why if you are in
love with someone it functions better -- because with love imagination
enters. If you are not in love it is very difficult. It will not function.
is the reason why male prostitutes were not found in the old days,
only women prostitutes. It is difficult for a male prostitute if he
has no love, and how can he have love just because of money? You can
pay a man to have intercourse with you, but if he has no imagination
for you he cannot function. Women can function because their sex is
passive. Really, their functioning is not needed. They can be totally
detached; they may not be feeling anything at all. Their bodies can
just be there like corpses. With a prostitute you are not making love
with a real body -- only with a dead corpse. But women can easily
be prostitutes because their sex is passive.
sex center functions through imagination. That is why even in dreams
you can get erections and ejaculations. They are actual. Dreams are
just imagination. It has been observed that every man, if physically
fit, will have at least ten erections in the night. With every movement
of the mind, with only a slight thought of sex, the erection will
come. Your mind has many energies, many faculties, and one is will.
But you cannot will sex. For sex will is impotent. If you try to love
someone, you will feel you have gone impotent. So never try. Will
never functions with sex; only imagination will function. Imagine,
and the center will start to function. Why am I emphasizing this fact?
Because if imagination helps the energy to move, then you can move
it upwards or downwards just by imagination. You cannot move your
blood by imagination; you cannot do anything else in the body by imagination.
But sex energy can be moved by imagination. You can change its direction.
sutra says, "CONSIDER YOUR ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS" -- think
of yourself, your being, as light rays -- "FROM CENTER TO CENTER
UP THE VERTEBRAE" -- up your spine -- "AND SO RISES `LIVINGNESS'
IN YOU." Yoga has divided your spine into seven centers. The
first is the sex center and the last is SAHASRAR, and between these
two there are five centers. Some systems divide into nine, some into
three, some into four. Division is not very meaningful, you can make
your own division. Just five centers are enough to work with; the
first is the sex center, the second is just behind the navel, the
third is just behind the heart, the fourth is behind your two eyebrows,
just in between, in the middle of the forehead. And the fifth, SAHASRAR,
is just on the peak of your head. These five will do.
sutra says, "CONSIDER YOURSELF...", which means imagine
yourself -- close your eyes and imagine yourself just as if you are
light. This is not just imagination. In the beginning it is, but it
is reality also because everything consists of light. Now science
says that everything consists of electricity, and tantra has always
said that everything consists of light particles -- and you also.
That is why the Koran says that God is light. YOU are light! Imagine
first that you are just light rays; then move your imagination to
the sex center. Concentrate your attention there and feel that light
rays are rising upwards from the sex center, as if the sex center
has become a source of light and light rays are moving in an upsurge
-- upwards towards the navel center. Division is needed because it
will be difficult for you to connect your sex center with the SAHASRAR.
So smaller divisions will be of help. If you can connect, no divisions
are needed. You can just drop all divisions from your sex center onwards,
and the energy, the life force will rise up as light towards the SAHASRAR.
But divisions will be more helpful because your mind can conceive
of smaller fragments more easily.
just feel that the energy -- just the light rays -- is rising up from
your sex center to your navel like a river of light. Immediately you
will feel a warmth rising in you. Soon your navel will become hot.
You can feel the hotness; even others can feel that hotness. Through
your imagination the sex energy will have started to rise. When you
feel that now the second center at the navel has become a source of
light, that the rays are coming and being collected there, then start
to move to the heart center. As the light reaches the heart center,
as the rays are coming, your heartbeat will be changed. Your breathing
will become deeper, and a warmth will come to your heart. Go on upwards.
YOUR ESSENCE AS LIGHT RAYS FROM CENTER TO CENTER UP THE VERTEBRAE,
AND SO RISES `LIVINGNESS' IN YOU." And as you will feel warmth,
just side by side you will feel a "livingness," a new life
coming to you, an inward light rising up. Sex energy has two parts:
one is physical and one is psychic. In your body everything has two
parts. Just like your body and mind, everything within you has two
parts -- one material and the other spiritual. Sex energy has two
parts. The material part is semen; it cannot rise upwards, there is
no passage for it. Because of this, many physiologists of the West
say that tantra and yoga methods are nonsense and they deny them completely.
How can sex energy rise up? There is no passage and sex energy cannot
rise. They are right and still wrong. Semen, the material part, cannot
rise -- but that is not the whole of it. Really, it is only the body
of sex energy, it is not the sex energy. The sex energy is the psychic
part of it, and the psychic part can rise. And for that psychic part,
the spinal passage is used -- the spinal passage and its centers.
But that has to be felt and your feelings have gone dead.
remember somewhere that a certain psychotherapist wrote about a patient,
a woman. He was telling her to feel something, but the psychotherapist
felt that whatever she did she was not feeling, but thinking about
feeling -- and that is a different thing. So the therapist put his
hand on the woman's hand and pressed it, telling her to close her
eyes and relate what she felt. She said immediately, "I feel
the therapist said, "No, this is not your feeling. This is just
your thinking, your inference. I have put my hand in your hand; you
say you are feeling my hand. But you are not. This is inference. What
do you feel?"
she said, "I feel your fingers."
therapist again said, "No, this is not feeling. Don't infer anything.
Just close your eyes and move to the place where my hand is; then
tell me what you feel."
she said, "Oh! I was missing the whole thing. I feel pressure
a hand touches you, a hand is not felt. Pressure and warmth are felt.
The hand is just inference, it is intellect, not feeling. Warmth and
pressure, that is feeling. Now she was feeling. We have lost feeling
completely. You will have to develop feeling; only then can you do
such techniques. Otherwise, they will not function. You will just
intellectualize, you will just think that you are feeling, and nothing
will happen. That is why people come to me and say, "You tell
us this technique is so significant, but nothing happens." They
have tried, but they are missing a dimension -- the feeling dimension.
So first you will have to develop that, and there are some methods
which you can try.
can do one thing. If you have a small child in your house, follow
the child around for one hour every day. It will be better and more
fulfilling than following a buddha. Allow the child to move on all
fours, and you also move on all fours. Just follow the child moving
on all fours, and you will feel for the first time a new life energy
coming to you. You will again become a child. Look at the child and
just follow. He will go to every corner; he will touch everything
-- not only touch, he will taste everything, he will smell everything.
Just follow, and do whatsoever he is doing.
were also a child once; you have done this. The child is feeling.
He is not intellectualizing, he is not thinking. He feels a smell,
so he moves to that corner from where it is coming. He sees an apple,
so he tastes it. Just taste like a child. Watch when he is eating
the apple, look at him: he is totally absorbed in it. The whole world
has dropped, the world is no more there -- only the apple. Even the
apple is not and the child is not -- only the eating. Just follow
a small child for one hour. That hour will be so enriching, you will
become again a child.
defense mechanisms will drop, your armor will drop, and you will start
looking at the world as a child looks -- from the feeling dimension.
When you feel that now you can feel, not think, you will enjoy the
texture of the carpet on which you are moving like a child, the pressure,
the warmth -- and just by innocently following a child. Man can learn
much from children, and sooner or later your real innocence will erupt.
You were once a child and you know what it means to be one. You have
feeling center must start functioning; only then will these techniques
be of any help. Otherwise you will go on thinking that energy is rising,
but there will be no feeling. And if there is no feeling, imagination
is impotent, futile. Only a feeling imagination will give you a result.
You can do many other things and there is no need to make a specific
effort to do them. When you go to sleep just feel your bed, feel the
pillow -- the coldness. Just turn onto it; play with the pillow.
your eyes and listen to the noise of the air conditioner, or of the
traffic or of the clock or anything. Just listen. Don't label, don't
say anything. Don't use the mind. Just live in the sensation. In the
morning, in the first moment of waking, when you feel that now sleep
has gone, don't start thinking. For a few moments you can again be
a child -- innocent, fresh. Don't start thinking. Don't think about
what you are going to do and when you are starting for the office
and what train you are going to catch. Don't start thinking. You will
have enough time for all that nonsense. Just wait. For a few moments
just listen to the noise. A bird is singing or the wind is passing
through the trees or a child is crying or the milkman has come and
is making sounds or the milk is being poured. With anything that happens,
feel it. Be sensitive to it, open to it. Allow it to happen to you,
and your sensitivity will grow.
taking a shower, feel it all over the body -- every drop of water
touching you. Feel the touch, the coldness, the warmth! Try this the
whole day whenever you have the chance, and everywhere there is a
chance -- everywhere! When just breathing, feel the breath -- its
movement within and its going out -- just feel it! Just feel your
own body. You have not felt it.
are so afraid of our own bodies. No one touches his own body in a
loving way. Have you ever given any love to your own body? The whole
civilization is afraid of anyone touching himself because from childhood
touching has been denied. It appears to be masturbatory to touch oneself
in a loving way. But if you cannot touch yourself in a loving way
your body will go dull and dead. It has gone so. Touch your eyes with
your palms. Feel the touch, and your eyes will feel fresh and alive
immediately. Feel your body all over. Feel your lover's body, your
friend's body. Massage is good. Two friends can massage each other
and feel each other's bodies. You will become more sensitive.
sensitivity and feeling. Then it will be easy for you to do these
techniques, and then you will feel "livingness" arising
in you. Don't leave this energy anywhere. Allow it to come to the
SAHASRAR. Remember this: whenever you do this experiment, don't leave
it in the middle. You have to complete it. Take care that no one disturbs
you. If you leave this energy somewhere in the middle, it can be harmful.
It has to be released. So bring it to the head and feel as if your
head has become an opening.
India we have pictured SAHASRAR as a lotus -- as a thousand- petalled
lotus. `SAHASRAR' means a thousandpetalled -- an opening of a thousand
petals. Just conceive of the lotus with a thousand petals, opened,
and from every petal this light energy is moving into the cosmos.
Again, this is a love act -- not with nature now, but with the ultimate.
Again, it is an orgasm.
are two types of orgasms: one is sexual and the other spiritual. The
sexual comes from the lowest center and the spiritual from the highest
center. From the highest you meet the highest and from the lowest
you meet the lowest. Even while actually in the sex act, you can do
this exercise; both the partners can do this. Move the energy upwards,
and then the sex act becomes tantra SADHANA; it becomes meditation.
don't leave the energy somewhere in the body at some center. Someone
may come and you will have some business, or some phone call will
come and you will have to stop. So do it at such a time that no one
will disturb you, and don't leave the energy in any center. Otherwise
that center where you leave the energy will become a wound, and you
may create many mental illnesses. So be aware; otherwise don't do
this. This method needs absolute privacy and no disturbance, and it
must be done completely. The energy must come to the head, and it
should be released from there.
will have various experiences. When you will feel that the rays are
starting to come up from the sex center, there will be erections or
sensations at the sex center. Many, many people come to me very afraid
and scared. They say that whenever they start meditation, when they
start to move deep, there is an erection. They wonder, "What
is this?" They are afraid because they think that in meditation
sex should not be there. But you don't know life's functioning. It
is a good sign. It shows that energy is now there alive. Now it needs
movement. So don't become scared and don't think that something is
wrong. It is a good sign. When you start meditation the sex center
will become more sensitive, alive, excited, and in the beginning the
excitement will be just the same as any sexual excitement -- but only
in the beginning. As your meditation becomes deeper, you will feel
energy flowing up. As the energy flows, the sex center becomes silent,
the energy will really move to the SAHASRAR, there will be no sensation
at the sex center. It will be totally still and silent. It will have
become completely cool, and the warmth will have come to the head.
And this is physical. When the sex center is excited, it becomes hot;
you can feel that hotness, it is physical. When the energy will move,
the sex center will become cooler and cooler and cooler, and the hotness
will come to the head.
will feel dizzy. When the energy comes to the head, you will feel
dizzy. Sometimes you may even feel nausea because for the first time
energy has come to the head and your head is not acquainted with it.
It has to become tuned. So don't become afraid. Sometimes you may
immediately become unconscious, but don't be afraid. This happens.
If so much energy moves suddenly and explodes in the head, you may
become unconscious. But that unconsciousness cannot remain for more
than one hour. Within one hour the energy automatically falls back
or is released. You cannot remain that way for more than one hour.
I say one hour, but in fact it is exactly forty-eight minutes. It
cannot be more than that. It never has been in millions of years of
experiments, so don't be afraid. If you do become unconscious, it
is okay. After that unconsciousness you will feel so fresh that it
is as if you have been in sleep for the first time, in the deepest
calls it by a special name -- YOGA TANDRA: yogic sleep. It is very
deep; you move to your deepest center. But don't be afraid. And if
your head becomes hot, it is a good sign. Release the energy. Feel
as if your head is opening like a lotus flower -- as if energy is
being released into the cosmos. As the energy is released, you will
feel a coldness coming to you. You have never felt the coldness that
comes after this hotness. But do the technique completely; never do