LISTEN TO OSHO SPEAK ON THIS MEDITATION
IN RAIN, DURING A BLACK NIGHT,
ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS
has been one very old esoteric school about which you may not have
heard. The school was known as the school of Essenes. Jesus was taught
in that school; he belonged to the Essenes group. That Essenes group
is the only group all over the world who thinks of God as absolute
darkness. The Koran says God is light, the Upanishads say God is light,
the Bible says God is light. The Essenes group is the only tradition
in the world which says that God is absolute blackness, absolute darkness,
just an infinite black night.
This is very beautiful; strange, but very beautiful -- and very meaningful.
You must understand the meaning, then this technique will be very
helpful, because this is the technique used by the Essenes to enter
darkness, to become one with it.
Why has God been symbolized everywhere as light? Not because God is
light, but because man is afraid of darkness. This is human fear --
we like light and we are afraid of darkness, so we cannot conceive
God as darkness, as blackness. This is human conception. We conceive
God as light because we are afraid of darkness.
gods are created out of our fear. We give them shape and form. That
shape and form is given by us -- it shows something about us, not
about our gods. They are our creations. We are afraid in darkness,
so God is light. But these techniques belong to the other school.
say that God is darkness, and there is something in it. One thing:
darkness is eternal. Light comes and goes and darkness remains. In
the morning the sun will rise and there will be light; in the evening
the sun will set and there will be darkness. For darkness nothing
will rise -- it is always there. It never rises and never sets. Light
comes and goes; darkness remains. Light always has some source; darkness
is without source. That which has some source cannot be infinite;
only that which is sourceless can be infinite and eternal. Light has
a certain disturbance; that's why you cannot sleep in light. It creates
a tension. Darkness is relaxation, total relaxation.
why are we afraid of darkness? Because light appears to us as life
-- it is; and darkness appears to be death -- it is. Life comes through
light, and when you die it appears you have fallen into eternal darkness.
That's why we paint death as black, and black has become a color for
mourning. God is light, and death is black. But these are our fears
projected. Actually, darkness has infinity; light is limited. Darkness
seems to be the womb out of which everything arises and into which
took this standpoint. It is very beautiful and very helpful also,
because if you can love darkness you will become unafraid of death.
If you can enter into darkness -- and you can enter only when there
is no fear -- you will achieve total relaxation. If you can become
one with darkness, you are dissolved, it is a surrender. Now there
is no fear, because if you have become one with darkness, you have
become one with death. You cannot die now. You have become deathless.
Darkness is deathless. Light is born and dies; darkness simply is.
It is deathless.
these techniques, first you will have to remember that there should
be no fear in your mind about darkness, about blackness, otherwise
how can you do this experiment? First the fear must be dropped. So
do one thing as a preliminary step: sit in darkness, put off the lights,
feel darkness. Have a loving attitude towards it; allow the darkness
to touch you. Look at it. Open your eyes in a dark room or in a dark
night; have a communion, be together, imbibe a relationship. You will
become afraid -- then these techniques cannot be of any help, you
cannot do them.
a deep friendship with darkness is needed. Sometimes in the night
when everyone has gone to sleep, remain with the darkness. Don't do
anything, just remain with it. And just remaining with it will give
you a deep feeling towards it, because it is so relaxing. You have
not known it simply because of the fear. If you are not feeling sleepy,
you will put on the light immediately, you will start reading or doing
something, but you will not remain with the darkness. Remain with
it. If you can remain with it, you will have new openings, new contacts
has closed himself completely against darkness. There were reasons,
historical reasons -- because the night was very dangerous, and man
was in the caves or in the jungles. In the day he was more secure:
he could see all around, and no wild animals could attack him; or,
he could make some arrangements, some defence -- at least he could
escape. But in the night everywhere was darkness and he was helpless,
so he became afraid -- and that fear has gone into the unconscious;
still we are afraid.
are not living in caves now and we are not at the mercy of wild animals,
no one is going to attack us -- but the fear is there, it has gone
deep, because for millions of years the human mind was afraid. Your
unconsciousness is not your own; it is collective, it is hereditary,
it has come down to you. The fear is there, and because of that fear
you can have no communion with darkness.
thing more: because of this fear, man started to worship fire. When
fire was discovered, fire became a god. Not that fire is a god, but
because of the fear of darkness. In the day there was light and no
fear -- man was more protected. In the night there was darkness, so
when fire was discovered, of course, fire became a god -- the greatest.
The Parsees still go on worshipping fire. The worship of fire came
into being because of the fear of darkness. In the night the fire
became the friend, the protector, the divine security.
fear is still there. You may not be aware of it, because no situations
are there in which you can become aware of it, but one day put off
the light in the night and sit -- and the primitive fear will come
to you. In your own house you will start feeling that some wild animals
are around. Some noise will come, and you will become afraid of wild
animals -- some danger is around. That danger is not around; that
is in your unconscious.
first you have to overcome your unconscious fear, and then you can
enter these techniques, because these techniques are concerned with
darkness. And Shiva is giving all the techniques that are possible.
own experience with these techniques is very beautiful. If you can
do them they are wonderful. You will enter such a deep relaxation
that you have never known. But first uncover your unconscious fears
and try to live and love darkness. It is very blissful. Once you know,
and once you are in contact with it, you are in contact with a very
deep cosmic phenomenon.
whenever you have the opportunity to be in the dark, and awake....
Because you can do two things: either you can put on the light or
you can go to sleep. Both are tricks to escape the darkness. If you
are asleep then you are not afraid, because you are not conscious.
Or, if you are conscious, then you will put on the light. Don't put
on the light and don't go to sleep. Remain with darkness.
fears will be felt. Feel them. Be aware of them. Bring them to your
conscious. They will come by themselves, and as they come, you remain
just a witness.. They will disappear, and very soon a day will come
when you can be in darkness with total surrender, with no fear. With
a total let-go you can be in darkness. Then a very beautiful phenomenon
happens. Then you can appreciate the saying of Essenes that God is
darkness, absolute darkness.
RAIN DURING A BLACK NIGHT,
THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS.
forms arise out of darkness and dissolve into darkness. Worlds come,
are created out of darkness, and they fall back into darkness. Darkness
is the womb, the cosmic womb. The undisturbed, the absolute stillness
says that it will be good to do this technique in a rainy night when
everything is black, when clouds are there and no stars can be seen
and the sky is completely dark. In a black night when there is no
moon... ENTER THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS. Be a witness to
that blackness, and then dissolve yourself into it. It is the form
of all forms. You are a form -- you can dissolve into it.
there is light, you are defined. I can see you, the light is there.
Your body has a definition. You are defined, you have boundaries.
Boundaries exist because of the light. When the light is not there,
boundaries are dissolved. In blackness nothing is defined, everything
merges into every other thing. Forms disappear.
may be one of the causes of our fear -- because then you are not defined,
then you don't know who you are. The face cannot be seen, the body
cannot be known. Everything merges into a formless existence. That
may be one of the causes of fear -- because you cannot feel your defined
existence. Existence becomes vague and fear enters, because you don't
know now who you are. The ego cannot exist: undefined, it is difficult
to exist as an ego. One feels afraid. One wants light to be there.
meditating, merging, it will be easier to merge into darkness than
to merge into light, because light gives distinctions. Darkness takes
away all distinctions. In the light you are beautiful or ugly, rich
or poor. The light gives you a personality, a distinctness -- educated,
uneducated, saint or sinner. The light reveals you as a distinct person.
Darkness envelops you, accepts you -- not as a distinct person; it
simply accepts you without any definitions. You are enveloped and
you become one.
darkness is doing it always, but because you are afraid you cannot
understand it. put aside your fear and become one.
THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF ALL FORMS.
THAT BLACKNESS... How can you enter blackness? Three things. One:
stare into blackness. Difficult. It is easy to stare at a flame, at
any source of light, because it is there as an object, pointed; you
can direct your attention to it. Darkness is not an object; it is
everywhere, it is all around. You cannot see it as an object. Stare
into the vacuum. All around it is there; you just look into it. Feel
at ease and look into it. It will start entering your eyes. And when
the darkness enters your eyes you are entering into it.
with open eyes when doing this technique in the dark night. Don't
close your eyes, because with closed eyes you have a different darkness.
That is your own, mental; it is not real. If is not real. Really,
it is a negative part; it is not positive darkness. Here is light:
you close your eyes and you can have a darkness, but that darkness
is simply the negative of the light. Just as when you look at the
window and then you close your eyes you have a negative figure of
the window. All our experience is of light, so when we close our eyes
we have a negative experience of light which we call darkness. It
is not real, it won't do.
your eyes, remain with open eyes in darkness, and you will have a
different darkness -- the positive darkness that is there. Stare into
it. Go on staring into darkness. Your tears will start, your eyes
will get sore, they will hurt. Don't get worried, just go on. And
the moment the darkness, the real darkness which is there, enters
in your eyes, it will give you a very deep soothing feeling. When
real darkness enters in you, you will be filled by it.
this entering of darkness will empty you of all negative darkness.
This is a very deep phenomenon. The darkness that you have within
in a negative thing; it is against the light. It is not the absence
of light; it is against the light. It is not the darkness that Shiva
is speaking of as the form of all forms -- the real darkness that's
there. We are so afraid of it that we have created many sources of
light just as protection, and we live in a lighted world. Then we
close our eyes and the lighted world reflects negatively inside. We
have lost contact with the real darkness that is there -- the darkness
of the Essenes, or the darkness of Shiva. We have no contact with
it. We have become so much afraid of it that we have turned ourselves
completely away. We are standing with our backs to it.
this will be difficult, but if you can do it, it is miraculous, it
is magical. You will have a different being altogether. When darkness
enters you, you enter into it. It is always reciprocal, mutual. You
cannot enter into any cosmic phenomenon without the cosmic phenomenon
entering in you. You cannot rape it, you cannot force any entry. If
you are available, open, vulnerable, and if you give way for any cosmic
realm to enter in you, then only will you enter into it. It is always
mutual. You cannot force; you can only allow it.
is difficult to find real darkness in cities now; difficult in our
houses to find real darkness. With the unreal light we have made everything
unreal. Even our darkness is polluted, it is not pure. So it is good
to move to some remote place only to feel darkness. Just go to a very
remote village where there is no electricity, or move to a mountain
peak. Just be there for one week to experience pure darkness.
will come back a different man, because in those seven days of absolute
darkness, all the fears, all the primitive fears, will come up. You
will have to face monsters, you will have to face your own unconscious.
The whole humanity will... it will be as if you are passing through
the whole passage that has passed, and deep from your unconscious
many things will arise. They will look real. You may get afraid, scared,
because they will be so real -- and they are just your mental creations.
madmen in our mad asylums are suffering not from anything else but
just from the primitive fears inside them which have erupted. The
fears are there; the madmen are afraid, scared every moment of their
lives. And we don't yet know how to allow those primitive fears to
evaporate. If madmen can be helped to meditate on darkness, madness
only in Japan do they work a little towards this. With their madmen
they behave absolutely differently. If someone goes mad, psychotic
or neurotic, the Japanese method is to allow him to live in isolation
for three weeks or for six weeks, as the case may need. They just
allow him to live in isolation. No doctor, no psychoanalyst goes to
him. Food is supplied, his needs are taken care of, and he is left
the night there is no light;in darkness he is alone -- suffering of
course, passing through many phases. Every care is taken, but no companionship
is given to him. He has to face his own madness immediately and directly.
And within three to six weeks, the madness starts disappearing. Nothing
has been done really; he has simply been left alone. This is the only
measure that has been taken.
psychiatrists have become amazed. They can't understand really how
it can happen, because they work for years. They psychoanalyze, they
treat, they do everything, but they never leave the man alone. They
never leave him to face his inner unconscious totally on his own.
Because the more help you give, the more you make him helpless, because
the more he depends on you. And the question is of an inner encounter;
no one can help really. So those who know, they will leave you to
have to come to terms with your unconscious. And this meditation on
darkness will absorb all your madness completely. Try it. Even in
your home you can try it. Every night, for one hour remain with darkness.
Don't do anything, just stare into darkness. You will have a melting
feeling, and you will feel that something is entering you and you
are entering into something.
living with darkness for three months, for one hour a day, you will
lose all feeling of individuality, of separation. Then you will not
be an island; you will become the ocean. You will be one with darkness.
And darkness is so oceanic: nothing is so vast, nothing is so eternal.
And nothing is so near you, and of nothing are you so scared and afraid.
It is just by the corner, always waiting.
RAIN DURING A BLACK NIGHT,
THAT BLACKNESS AS THE FORM OF FORMS.
so that it enters in your eyes.
lie down and feel as if you are near your mother. The darkness is
the mother, the mother of all. Think: when there was nothing, what
was there? You cannot think of anything else than darkness. If everything
disappears, what will be there still? Darkness will be there.
is the mother, the womb, so lie down and feel that you are lying in
the womb of your mother. And it will become real, it will become warm,
and sooner or later you will start feeling that the darkness, the
womb, is enveloping you from everywhere. You are in it.
thirdly: moving, going to work, talking, eating, doing whatsoever,
carry a patch of darkness within you. The darkness that has entered
in you, just carry it. As we were discussing about the method of carrying
a flame, carry darkness. And as I said to you that if you carry a
flame and feel you are light, your body will start radiating a certain
strange light and those who are sensitive will start feeling it, the
same will happen with darkness.
you carry darkness within you, your whole body will become so relaxed
and calm, so cool, that it will be felt. And as when you carry light
within you some people will become attracted to you, when you carry
darkness within you some people will simply escape from you. They
will become afraid and scared. They will not be able to bear so silent
a being; it will become unbearable to them.
you carry darkness within you, those who are afraid of darkness will
try to escape from you; they will not come near you. And everyone
is afraid of darkness. You will start feeling that friends are leaving
you. Your family will get disturbed when you enter, because you enter
like a pool of coolness, and everyone is agitated and excited. It
will be difficult for them to look into your eyes, because your eyes
will become deep like valleys, an abyss. If someone looks into your
eyes he will become dizzy, such a deep abyss will be felt there.
you will feel many things. It will be impossible for you to get angry.
Carrying darkness within, you cannot be angry. Carrying a flame you
can be angry very easily, more easily than ever, because the flame
can excite you. Carrying a flame you will feel more sexual than ever,
because the flame will excite you, it will create passion. But carrying
darkness within you, you will feel a deep asexuality happening to
you. You will not feel sexual; you will not be able to easily get
into anger. Passion will disappear. You will not feel that you are
a man or a woman. You will feel that those words have become irrelevant,
meaningless. You simply are.
darkness within for the whole day will help you very much, because
then when you contemplate and meditate on darkness in the night, the
inner darkness that you have carried the whole day will help you to
meet -- the inner will come to meet the outer.
just be remembering that you are carrying darkness -- you are filled
with darkness, every pore of the body, every cell of the body is filled
with darkness -- you will feel so relaxed. Try it. You will feel so
relaxed. Everything in you will be slowed down. You will not be able
to run, you will walk, and that walk also will be slowed down. You
will walk slowly, just as a pregnant woman walks. You will walk slowly,
very carefully. You are carrying something.
quite the opposite will happen when you are carrying a flame: your
walk will become faster; rather, you would like to run. There will
be more movement, you will become more active. Carrying darkness you
will be relaxed. Others will start feeling that you are lazy.
the days when I was at university, I was doing this experiment for
two years. I became so lazy that even to get out of bed in the morning
was difficult. My professors became very much disturbed about it,
and they thought something had gone wrong with me -- either I was
ill, or I had become absolutely indifferent. One professor who loved
me very much, the head of my department, became so worried that on
my examination days he would come to fetch me from the hostel in the
morning just to lead me to the examination hall so that I could be
there on time. Every day he would see that I had entered the hall,
and only then would he feel okay and go home.
it. It is one of the most beautiful experiences in life to carry darkness
in your womb, to become dark. Walking, eating, sitting, doing whatsoever,
remember, the darkness is filled in you; you are filled with it. And
then see how things change. You cannot get excited, you cannot be
very active, you cannot be tense. Your sleep will become so deep that
dreams will disappear and the whole day you will move as if intoxicated.
have used this method, a particular sect of Sufis, and those Sufis
are known as drunken Sufis. They are drunk with this darkness. They
make holes in the ground, and they lie down in the holes every night,
and they meditate lying down in their holes -- meditating darkness,
becoming one with it. And their eyes will show you that they are intoxicated.
You can feel from their eyes such deep relaxation, such a relaxed
vibration, that it can happen only if you are deeply intoxicated or
feeling very sleepy. Only then can your eyes show that expression.
They are known as drunken Sufis -- and they are drunk with darkness.