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LISTEN TO OSHO SPEAK ON THIS MEDITATION
FOCUS ON FIRE RISING THROUGH
YOUR FORM, FROM THE TOES UP, UNTIL THE BODY BURNS TO ASHES BUT NOT
YOU
FOCUS ON FIRE RISING THROUGH YOUR FORM, FROM
THE TOES UP, UNTIL THE BODY BURNS TO ASHES BUT NOT YOU. A very simple
technique and very wonderful, very easy to do, but some basic requirements
are to be fulfilled beforehand. Buddha liked this technique very much;
he initiated his disciples into this technique.
Whenever
someone was initiated by Buddha, the first thing was this: he would
tell him just to go to the burning place and observe a body being
burned, a dead body being burned. For three months he was not to do
anything, but just sit there and watch. So the seeker would go to
the burning place of the village. He would stay there for three months,
day and night, and whenever a dead body would come there he would
just sit and meditate. He would just look at the dead body; then the
fire would be created and then the body would start burning. And for
three months continuously he would not do anything else -- just look
at dead bodies being burned.
Buddha
said, `Don't think about it. Just look at it." And it is difficult
not to come upon the thought that sooner or later your body is going
to be burned. Three months is a long time, and continuously, day and
night, whenever there was a body to be burned, the seeker was to meditate.
Sooner or later he would start seeing his own body on the burning
pyre. He would start seeing himself being burned.
It
will be helpful; if you want to do this technique, go to the burning
place. Watch -- not for three months -- but at least watch one body
being burned; observe it. Then you can do this technique easily with
yourself. Don't think: simply watch the phenomenon, watch what is
happening.
People
go to burn their relatives' bodies, but they never watch. They start
talking of other things, or about death; they argue and discuss. They
do many things. They talk many things and gossip, but they never watch.
It should be made a meditation. No talking should be allowed there,
because it is a rare experience to see someone you loved being burned.
You are bound to feel that you are also burning there. If you are
seeing your mother being burned, or your father, or your wife, or
your husband, you are bound to see yourself also there in the flames.
That experience will help for this technique. The first thing.The
second thing: if you are very much afraid of death you cannot do this
technique, because the very fear will protect you. You cannot enter
into it. Or, you can just imagine on the surface, but your deep being
will not be in it. Then nothing will happen to you. So remember, the
second thing: whether you are afraid or not, death is the only certainty.
It
makes no difference whether you are afraid or not; it is irrelevant.
In life, nothing is certain except death. Everything is uncertain;
only death is not accidental. And look at the human mind. We always
talk about death as if it is an accident. Whenever someone dies we
say his death was untimely. Whenever someone dies we start talking
as if it has been an accident. Only death is not an accident -- only
death. Everything else is accidental. Death is absolutely certain.
You have to die.
And
when I say you have to die, it seems in the future, very far away.
It is not so -- you have already died. The moment you were born, you
died. With birth, death has become a fixed phenomenon. One part of
it has already happened -- the birth; now only the second, later part
has to happen. So you are already dead, half-dead, because once one
is born, one has come into the realm of death, entered into it. Now
nothing can change it, now there is no way to change it. You have
entered into it. You are half-dead with birth.
Secondly:
death is not going to happen in the end; it is already happening.
It is a process. Just as life is a process, death is a process. We
create the n -- but life and death are just like your two feet, your
two legs. Life and death are both one process. You are dying every
moment.
Let
me put it in this way: whenever you inhale, it is life, and whenever
you exhale, it is death. The first thing a child does is to inhale.
A child cannot exhale. The first thing is inhalation. He cannot exhale,
because there is no air within his chest; he has to inhale. The first
act is inhalation. And the old man, while dying, will do the last
act, which will be exhalation. Dying, you cannot inhale -- or can
you? When you are dying, you cannot inhale. The last act cannot be
inhalation; the last act will be exhalation. The first act is inhalation
and the last is exhalation. Inhalation is birth and exhalation is
death. But every moment you are doing both -- inhaling, exhaling.
Inhalation is life, exhalation is death.
You
may not have observed, but try to observe it. Whenever you exhale,
you are more at peace. Exhale deeply and you will feel a certain peace
within. Whenever you inhale, you become intense, you become tense.
The very intensity of inhalation creates a tension. And the normal,
ordinary emphasis is always on inhalation. If I tell you to take deep
breaths, you will always start with inhalation.
Really,
we are afraid of exhaling. That's why breathing has become shallow.
You never exhale, you go on inhaling. Only the body goes on exhaling,
because the body cannot exist with inhalation alone. It needs both:
life and death.
Try
one experiment. The whole day, whenever you remember, exhale deeply
and don't inhale. Allow the body to inhale; you simply exhale deeply.
And you will feel a deep peace, because death is peace, death is silence.
And if you can pay attention, more attention, to exhalation, you will
feel egoless. With inhalation you will feel more egoistic; with exhalation
you will feel more egoless. Pay more attention to exhalation. The
whole day, whenever you remember, exhale deeply and don't inhale.
Allow the body to inhale; you don't do anything.
This
emphasis on exhalation will help you very much to do this experiment,
because you will be ready to die. A readiness is needed, otherwise
the technique will not be of much help. And you can be ready only
if you have tasted death in a certain way. Exhale deeply and you will
have a taste of it. It is beautiful.
Death
is just beautiful, because nothing is like death -- so silent, so
relaxing, so calm, so unperturbed. But we are afraid of death. And
why are we afraid of death? Why is there so much fear of death? We
are afraid of death not because of death -- because we don't know
it. How can you be afraid of something you have never encountered?
How can you be afraid of something that you don't know? At least you
must know it to be afraid of it. So really you are not afraid of death;
the fear is something else. You have never really lived -- that creates
the fear of death.
The
fear comes because you are not living, so you are afraid -- `I have
not lived yet, and if death happens then what? Unfulfilled, unlived,
I will die.' The fear of death comes only to those who are not really
alive. If you are alive, you will welcome death. Then there is no
fear. You have known life; now you would like to know death also.
But we are so afraid of life itself that we have not know it, we have
not entered deep into it. That creates the fear of death.
If
you want to enter this technique you must be aware of this deep fear.
And this deep fear must be thrown away, purged, only then can you
enter the technique. This will help: pay more attention to exhalation.
And really, if you can pay all attention to exhalation and forget
inhaling.... Don't be afraid that you will die; you will not die --
the body will take inhalation by itself. The body has its own wisdom:
if you deeply exhale, the body will take a deep inhalation by itself.
You need not interfere. Then a very deep relaxation will spread all
over your consciousness. The whole day you will feel relaxed, and
an inner silence will be created.
You
can deepen this feeling more if you do another experiment. Just for
fifteen minutes in the day exhale deeply. Sit in a chair or on the
ground, exhale deeply, and while exhaling close the eyes. When the
air goes out, you go in. And then allow the body to inhale, and when
the air goes in, open the eyes and you go out. It is just the opposite:
when the air goes out, you go in; when the air goes in, you go out.
When
you exhale, space is created within, because breath is life. When
you exhale deeply, you are vacant, life has gone out. In a way you
are dead, for a moment you are dead. In that silence of death, enter
within. Air is moving out: you close your eyes and move within. The
space is there and you can move easily.
Remember,
when you are inhaling, to move inwards is very difficult, because
there is no space to move. While exhaling you can move within. And
when the air goes in, you go out; open the eyes and move out. Create
a rhythm between these two. Within fifteen minutes you will feel so
deeply relaxed, and you will be ready to do this technique.
Before
doing this technique, do this for fifteen minutes so that you are
ready -- not only ready, but welcoming, receptive. The fear of death
is not there, because now death appears like relaxation, death appears
like a deep rest. Death appears not antagonistic to life, but the
very source of it, the very energy of it. Life is just like ripples
on the face of a lake, and death is the lake itself. When ripples
are not there the lake is there. And the lake can exist without the
ripples, but the ripples cannot exist without the lake. Life cannot
exist without death. Death can exist without life, because it is the
source. Then you can do this technique.
FOCUS
ON FIRE
RISING
THROUGH YOUR FORM
FROM
THE TOES UP...
Just
lie down. First conceive of yourself as dead; the body is just like
a corpse. Lie down, and then bring your attention to the toes. With
closed eyes move inwards. Bring your attention to the toes and feel
that the fire is rising from there upwards, everything is being burned.
As the fire rises, your body is disappearing. Start from the toes
and move upwards.
Why
start from the toes? It will be easier, because the toes are very
far away from your I, from your ego. Your ego exists in the head.
You cannot start from the head, it will be very difficult, so start
from the far away point. The toes are the most far away point from
the ego. Start the fire from there. Feel that the toes are burned,
only ashes remain, and then move slowly, burning everything that the
fire comes across. Every part -- the legs, the thighs -- will disappear.
And
just go on seeing that they have become ashes. The fire is rising
upwards, and the parts it has passed are no more there; they have
become ashes. Go on upwards, and lastly the head disappears. Everything
has become... the dust has fallen unto dust... UNTIL THE BODY BURNS
TO ASHES BUT NOT YOU.
You
will remain just a watcher on the hill. The body will be there --
dead, burned, ashes -- and you will be the watcher, you will be the
witness. This witness has no ego.
This
technique is very good to reach the egoless state. Why? -- because
so many things are implied in it. It appears simple; it is not so
simple. The inner mechanism is very complex. First thing: your memories
are part of the body. Memory is matter; that's why it can be recorded.
It is recorded in the brain cells. They are material, part of the
body. Your brain cells can be operated on, and if certain brain cells
are removed, certain memories will disappear from you. Memories are
recorded in the brain cells. Memory is matter; it can destroyed. And
now scientists say it can be replanted, it can be transplanted again.
Sooner
or later we will find ways so that when a person like Albert Einstein
dies we will be able to save his brain cells. And those brain cells
will be able to be transplanted into a child, and that child will
have all the memories of Albert Einstein without going through all
those experiences. It is part of the body, memory is part of the body,
and if the whole body is burned and has become ashes, you will not
have any memory.
Remember,
this is the point to understand: if the memory is still there, then
the body remains and you have been playing tricks. If really you go
deep in the feeling that the body is dead, burning, and the fire has
completely destroyed it, you will not have any memory in that moment.
In that moment of watching, there will be no mind. Everything will
have stopped -- no movement of thought, just watching, just seeing
what has happened.
And
once you know this, you can remain in this state continuously. Once
you have known that you can separate yourself from the body.... This
technique is just a method to separate yourself from the body, just
to create a gap between you and the body, just for a few moments to
be out of the body. If you can do this, then you can remain in the
body and you will not be in the body. You can go on living as you
were living before, but you will not be the same again.
This
technique will take at least three months. Go on doing it. It is not
going to happen in one day, but if you go on doing it every day for
one hour, within three months, some day suddenly your imagination
will have helped and the gap will be created, and you will actually
see the body gone to ashes. Then you can watch.
In
that watching you will realize a deep phenomenon -- that the ego is
a false entity. It was there because you were identified with the
body, with the thoughts, with the mind. You are neither -- neither
the mind nor the body. You are different from all that surrounds you;
you are different from your periphery.
Apparently
the technique seems simple, but it can bring you a deep mutation.
But first go and meditate on the burning ghat, on the burning ground,
so you can see how the body burns, how the body turns to dust again
-- so you can imagine easily. Then start from the toes and move very
slowly. And before doing this technique, pay more attention to exhalation.
Right before entering the technique, for fifteen minutes exhale and
close the eyes; allow the body to inhale and open the eyes. For fifteen
minutes feel a deep relaxation and then enter into it.

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