LISTEN TO OSHO SPEAK ON THIS MEDITATION
YOUR SUBSTANCE, BONES, FLESH, BLOOD, SATURATED WITH THE COSMIC ESSENCE
with simple experiments. For seven days try one simple experiment:
feel your blood, your bones, your flesh, your body, filled with sadness
-- every cell of the body sad; dark night around you; very heavy,
depressed; not a single ray of light; no hope, gloomy, just as if
you are going to die. Life is not throbbing in you; you are just waiting
for death. It is as if death has already settled, or is settling.
For seven days contemplate on the feeling that death has entered throughout
the body; it has penetrated deep to the bone, to the very marrow.
Go on thinking in this way, don't disturb this mood. And then, after
seven days, see how you feel.
You will be just a dead weight. All feeling will have disappeared,
the body will not be felt as alive. And what have you done? You have
been eating, you have been doing everything the same as you have always
been doing; the only change has been in the imagination -- there is
a new pattern of imagination around you.
If you succeed in it.... You will succeed. Really, you have already
succeeded in it; you are doing it, you are expert in doing this, unknowingly.
That's why I say start with sadness. If I say be filled with bliss,
it will be very difficult. You cannot conceive of it. But if you can
do it with sadness, then you will become aware that if sadness can
happen to you, why not happiness? If you can create a sad milieu around
you and become a dead thing in it, then why can't you create an alive
milieu around you and be alive, dancing? The other becomes conceivable.
Secondly, you will become aware that whatever sadness you have been
suffering was not real. You were the creator of it, you were the author;
unknowingly you have been doing this. It seems difficult to believe
that your sadness is your imagination, because then the whole responsibility
falls on you. Then no one else is responsible, then you cannot throw
it on God, on fate, on others, on society, on wife, on husband --
you cannot throw it anywhere. You are the creator, and whatsoever
is happening to you, you are creating it.
Try it for seven days, consciously. And then, I say, you will never
be sad again -- because you will have known the key.
Then for seven days try just being in a stream of bliss -- floating
in it, every breath giving you ecstasy: just feel it. Start with sadness
for seven days and then for seven days move to the contrary. And when
you move to the direct opposite, you will feel it better because the
contrast will be there.
Then only can you try this experiment -- because it is deeper than
happiness. Sadness is the surface, happiness is the middle, and this
is the last core, the innermost core, the cosmic essence. FEEL YOUR
SUBSTANCE, BONES, FLESH, BLOOD, SATURATED WITH THE COSMIC ESSENCE,
with eternal life, with Divine energy, with cosmic essence. But don't
start it directly because then you will not be able to touch it. Start
from sadness, then move to happiness, and then try the origin, the
very origin of life -- the cosmic essence. And feel yourself filled
In the beginning you will become aware again and again that you are
simply imagining it, but don't stop. Even imagination is good. Even
that you can imagine something worthwhile is good. You are imagining,
and in the very imagination you are changing. It is you who are imagining.
Go on imagining, and by and by you will forget completely that you
are imagining it -- it will have become a reality.
One of the greatest books ever written is the Buddhist scripture,
`Lankawatar Sutra'. Buddha says again and again to his disciple Mahamati,
he goes on saying again and again, "Mahamati, this is only mind.
Hell is mind. Heaven is mind. The world is mind. Enlightenment is
mind." Mahamati asks again and again, "Just mind? Just mind?
Even nirvana, enlightenment, just mind?" And Buddha says, "Just
When you understand that everything is just mind, you are freed. Then
there Then there is no bondage, then there is no desire. In `Lankawatar
Sutra', Buddha says that the whole world is just like a magical world,
a city of Gandharwa, as if a magician has created a world. Everything
appears to be there, but it is there only because of the thought form.
But don't start with outer reality, that is too far. That too is mind,
but it is very away from you. Start from the very near, you own moods;
and you will be the master if you can feel and know that they are
your own creation.
Whenever you start thinking in terms of sadness, you become sad, and
you become receptive to all the sadness around you. Then everybody
helps you to be sad. Everybody helps, the whole world is always ready
to help you, whatsoever you do. When you want to be sad, the whole
world is helpful, cooperative. You have become receptive. Really,
you fall to a certain wave-length where only sadness can be received.
So even if someone comes to cheer you up, he will make you more sad.
He will not look friendly, he will not look understanding; you will
feel that he is insulting you because you are so sad and he is trying
to cheer you up. He thinks your sadness is superficial. He is not
taking you seriously.
And when you are ready to be happy, you are on a different wave-length.
Now you are attuned to all the happiness that this world can give,
now everywhere flowers start flowering, now every sound and noise
becomes musical -- and nothing has happened. The whole world remains
the same, but you are different. You have a different pattern of looking,
a different attitude, a different perspective; through that perspective
a different world comes to you.
But start with sadness because you are expert in that. I was reading
a sentence of some old Hassid mystic -- I liked it very much. He says
there are certain people, who, if their whole life becomes a bed of
roses, will not be happy until they develop some allergy towards the
roses. Roses cannot make them happy... only when they become allergic
will they start feeling alive. They can be attuned only to sadness,
to illness, to disease, they cannot be aware of anything else. They
go on finding sadness. They are searchers after wrong -- something
wrong, something sad, depressed, dark. They are death-oriented.
I have been meeting hundreds and hundreds of persons deeply, intimately,
closely. When they start talking about their sadness I have to be
serious -- otherwise they will not feel that I am sympathetic, they
will not feel good about it. Then they will never turn to me again.
I have to be sad with their sadness and serious with their seriousness
to help bring them out of it.. and this is their own creation, and
they are making every effort to create it. And if I try to bring them
out, they create every type of barrier -- not knowingly of course,
because no one will do it knowingly.
This is what the Upanishads call ignorance. Unknowingly you go on
disturbing your own life, you go on creating more problems and anxieties,
and whatsoever happens will not make any difference because you have
a pattern -- whatsoever happens. There are persons who come to me
and say, "We are lonely." So they are unhappy. And the next
moment someone comes and says he cannot find a place where he can
be lonely. So he is unhappy. Then there are persons who have too much
work on their minds, so they are unhappy, and there are persons who
have no work, so they are unhappy. A person who is married is unhappy,
a person who is not married, he is unhappy. It seems it is impossible
for man to be happy. That's what I mean when I say you are experts
-- you are very efficient in finding ways and means to be unhappy.
And you always succeed.
Start from sadness, and for seven days be completely unhappy for the
first time. That will transform you totally. Because once you know
that consciously you can be unhappy, you will become conscious whenever
you become unhappy. Then you will know what you are doing: it is your
own doing. And if you can be unhappy by your own mind, then why can't
you be happy? There is no difference, the pattern is the same. And
then you can try this.
FEEL YOUR SUBSTANCE, FLESH, BLOOD, BONES, SATURATED WITH THE COSMIC
ESSENCE. Feel as if the Divine is flowing through you: you are not,
but the cosmic exists in you, God exists in you. When you feel hungry,
he feels hungry -- then to give food to the body becomes worship.
When you feel thirsty, he feels thirsty -- the cosmic in you. When
you feel sleepy, he feels sleepy, he wants rest, relaxation. When
you are young, he is young in you. When you fall in love, he falls
in love. Be saturated with him, and be TOTALLY saturated with him.
Don't make any distinction. Good or bad, whatsoever happens is happening
to him. You just withdraw, you are no longer there, only he is there.
So good or bad, hell or heaven, whatsoever happens, happens to him.
All the responsibility is thrown onto him and you are no more. The
`no-moreness' that this technique can bring you is the ultimate in
But you have to be saturated with it. And you don't know any saturation,
you don't feel your body as porous, you don't feel that in your body
a life energy is flowing. You think of yourself as something solid,
dead, closed. Life can happen only when you are vulnerable, open,
not closed. Life moves through you, and whatsoever happens is happening
to the life energy, not to you -- you are just a fragment. And all
the boundaries that you have created around you are false, they are
cannot exist alone. If you are alone on the earth, can you exist?
You cannot exist alone. You cannot exist without the stars. Somewhere
Eddington says that the whole existence is like a spider's web --
the whole existence is a spider's net. If you touch the net anywhere,
the whole vibrates; if you touch existence anywhere, the whole vibrates.
It is one. If you touch a flower you have touched the whole cosmos;
if you look into your neighbors eyes you have looked into the cosmos.
Because the whole net is one. You cannot touch any part without touching
the whole, and no part can exist without the whole.
you start feeling this, the ego will disappear. The ego exists only
when you take a certain part as the whole. When you make a part the
whole, the ego exists. When you come to know the right proportion,
that the part is part, and the whole is whole, the ego disappears.
Ego is just a misunderstanding.
this technique, to feel oneself saturated with the cosmic, is just
the very early morning, when you feel life awakening, when you feel
that the sleep has gone, the first thought must be of this saturation
-- now the Divine is opening, coming back out of sleep, not you. So
Hindus, who have been one of the most penetrating races in the world,
will start their first breath with the name of God. Now it has become
a formality and the essential has been lost, but this was the root
of it -- that at the moment you become alert in the morning you must
not remember yourself, you must remember the Divine. The Divine must
become the first remembrance -- and the last, at night, when you are
falling asleep. The Divine must be remembered: he must be the first
and the last. And if he is really the first in the morning and the
last at night, he will be with you the whole day, in the middle also.
must drop into sleep saturated with him. You will be surprised, because
the quality of your sleep will be different. While falling into sleep
tonight, please don't you fall into sleep, let the Divine fall into
sleep. While you are preparing the bed, prepare it for the Divine
-- the guest is coming. And while you are lying on the bed, let the
Divine be there, not you -- treat yourself as the guest. And while
dropping into sleep go on feeling that the Divine exists, he saturates
every breath, he pulsates in the blood, he beats in the heart. Now
he is tired after a whole day of work, now he wants to sleep.
in the morning you will feel that you have been sleeping in a different
way. The quality of the sleep will be cosmic, because the meeting
will be deep at the source.
you feel yourself as Divine, you fall into the abyss because then
there is no fear. Otherwise, even in the night while you are sleeping
you are afraid to fall deeply into it. Many people are suffering from
sleeplessness -- not because of any other tension, but because they
are afraid to fall asleep, because sleep appears like an abyss, a
bottomless thing. I have known a few persons who are afraid.
old man came to me and said that he could not sleep because he was
afraid. I asked, "Why are you afraid?" He said, "I
am afraid because if I really sleep, and I die, I will not be conscious,
alert. And I can die because now I am old -- and I don't like the
idea of dying in sleep. At least let me be aware and alert of what
go on clinging to something so that you cannot fall into sleep, but
when you feel that the Divine is there, you have accepted. Then the
abyss is also Divine. Then you fall very deeply into the very original
sources of your being -- and the quality will be different. And when
you arise in the morning and you feel that sleep has gone, remember
that the Divine is arising. The whole day will be different.
be saturated -- whatsoever you do, or you don't do, let the Divine
do it -- simply allow it to be done. Eat, sleep, work, but let the
Divine do it. Only then can you be saturated, can you become one with
it. And once you feel, even for a single moment -- even for a single
moment, I say -- that the peak has come, that you are not, that the
Divine has saturated you completely, you are enlightened. In that
single moment, that timeless moment, you will become aware of the
whole mystery of life. Then there is no fear and then there is no
death. Now you have become life itself. It goes on and on; it never
ends, it never begins. Then life is ecstasy.
the concepts of MOKSHA, of heaven and paradise, are just childish,
because they are not really something geographical. They are symbols
of this ultimate state of being: when the individual has dissolved
into the cosmos or when the individual has allowed the cosmos to dissolve
into him; when the two have become one, when mind and matter, both
the manifestations, have come back to the original source, the third.
The whole search is for that. That is the only search, and you will
not be satisfied until this is achieved. Nothing can be a substitute
for it. You can go on moving for lives and lives, but unless this
is achieved, your search will be constantly haunting you. You cannot
technique can be very helpful and there is no danger in it; you can
practise it without a master. Remember this: all the techniques that
start with the body are dangerous without a master -- because the
body is a very complex phenomenon, very complex. It is a mechanism,
and without someone who knows exactly what is going on, it is dangerous
to start -- you may disturb the mechanism, and then it will be difficult
to repair it. All the techniques that start directly from mind are
based on imagination, and are not dangerous because the body is not
touched at all. They can be done even without a master -- although
it will be difficult because you don't have any self-confidence. A
master is not really going to do anything, but he becomes a catalytic
agent. He is not going to do anything -- really nothing can be done
-- but with just his presence, your confidence and trust are touched,
and it helps. With just the feeling that the master is there, you
move confidently. Because he is present, you are not afraid; because
he is with you, you can move into the unknown, the uncharted. But
with body techniques he is very necessary, because the body is a mechanism
and you can do something which cannot be easily undone. You can harm
man came to me, he was doing SIRSHASAN -- standing on his head for
hours together. In the beginning it was very good and he felt very
relaxed and cool the whole day. But then problems followed, and he
became very disturbed when the coolness disappeared and he became
hot all over. He became almost mad. And because he thought that SIRSHASAN
helped in the beginning, and he became very cool, and felt very collected,
silent, relaxed, he did it more because now he felt so disturbed.
He thought more SIRSHASAN would help him -- and SIRSHASAN was really
mind mechanism, the brain, needs only a certain amount of blood to
circulate through it; if less blood is circulating, you will be in
difficulty. And with everyone it is different. It depends. That's
why you cannot sleep without pillows. If you try to sleep without
pillows, you cannot sleep, or you will sleep less because more blood
flows into the head. Those pillows help you. Your head is high so
less blood flows, and for sleep, less blood is needed. If more blood
flows, then the brain is alert, it cannot relax. If you do too much
of SIRSHASAN, your sleep may be completely lost. You may not be able
to sleep at all. And there are dangers. It has been recorded that
seven days is the longest you can go without sleep. Only seven days,
after that you will go mad, because very subtle tissues of the brain
will break, and they cannot be replaced easily. While you are standing
on your head in SIRSHASAN, all the blood is flowing downwards towards
the head. So I have not seen anyone doing SIRSHASAN who is in any
way intelligent. If a person is doing much SIRSHASAN, he is bound
to become stupid, because the very subtle tissues of the brain will
be destroyed. With so much blood passing through, delicate tissues
it has to be decided by a master who knows how much will be helpful
to you -- a few seconds, or a few minutes. And this is just an example.
All the bodily postures, asanas, techniques, have to be done with
a master. They are never to be done alone because you don't know your
body. Your body is such a big thing, you cannot even conceive of it.
The small head, your head, has seven crores of cells in it. And those
seven crores of cells are interrelated. Scientists say that the interrelationship
is as complex as the whole universe.
Hindu seers have said that the whole cosmos exists in the head in
miniature. The whole complexity of the universe is there in miniature.
If the whole relationship of all the cells can be understood, you
have understood the whole complexity of the universe. You are not
aware of any cells, and about any relationship you are not aware.
And it is good that you are not aware, otherwise you will go mad with
such a big war going on. It can go on only unconsciously. The blood
circulates, but you are not aware of it.
just three centuries ago it was discovered that blood circulates in
the body. Before that it was thought that the blood was static, not
circulating. Circulation is a very recent concept. And man has been
in existence for millions of years but no one could feel that the
blood was circulating. You cannot feel it. Much speed, much work is
going on there. It is a big factory, your body, and one of the most
delicate ones. It is constantly repairing itself, constantly renewing
itself. For seventy years, if you don't make any trouble for it, it
will run smoothly. We have not created any mechanism up to now that
can take care of itself for seventy years. So when you start any work
on your body remember to be near a master who knows about what he
is telling you to do. Otherwise don't do it.
with imagination there is no problem. It is a simple phenomenon. You
can start it.