LISTEN TO OSHO SPEAK ON THIS MEDITATION
IN SOME PLACE ENDLESSLY SPACIOUS, CLEAR OF TREES, HILLS, HABITATIONS.
THENCE COMES THE END OF MIND PRESSURES
Before we enter this technique three other points about loneliness
must be understood. One: to be alone is basic, foundational -- that
is how your being is. In the mother;s womb you are alone, totally
alone, and psychologists say that the hankering for nirvana, for enlightenment,
for salvation, for paradise, is really a deep imprinted memory of
the experience of the mother;s womb. You have known it -- the total
aloneness -- and the bliss of it. You were alone, you were God. No
one else was there. No one disturbed you, no one interfered. Alone,
you were the master. With no conflict the peace was intrinsic. Silence
was there, no language. You were deep in yourself. You are not consciously
aware of the fact but it is deeply imprinted, it is there hidden in
of this, psychologists say that everyone thinks that life in childhood
was beautiful. And ever country and every race thinks that somewhere
in the past was the Golden Age -- somewhere in the past, life was
blissful. Hindus call it SATYA-YUG, age of truth. In the past, somewhere,
the very, very past, before history began, everything was beautiful
and blissful. There was no conflict, no strife, no violence. Only
love prevailed. That was the Golden Age. Christians say that Adam
and Eve lived in Eden, in the garden, in absolute innocence and blissfulness.
Then came the fall. So the Golden Age is before the fall. Every country,
every race, every religion, believes that the Golden Age was somewhere
in the past. And the strangeness is that howsoever deeply into the
past you move, this was always believed to be so, always.
Mesopotamia a stone has been found which is six thousand years old.
There is an inscription on it. If you read it you will feel that it
is the editorial of today's morning newspaper. The inscription says
that this age is the age of sin. Everything has gone wrong. The son
doesn't believe in the father, the wife doesn't believe in the husband.
Darkness has set. Where are those days, the days of the past, those
golden days? This is a six thousand-year-old inscription! Lao Tzu
says that in the days of the past, in the days of the ancients, everything
was beautiful. Then Tao prevailed, then there was nothing wrong, and
because there was nothing wrong, no one preached. There was nothing
wrong to be changed, transformed, and there was no priest, no preacher,
no moral leaders, because everything was so right. Lao Tzu says that
in those days, those old days, there was no religion. There was no
need because Tao prevailed. Everyone was so religious that there was
no need for religion. There were no sages then, because there were
no sinners. Everyone was such a sage that, naturally, no one was aware
of who was a sage and who was a sinner.
say that this past never existed. This past is just the deep memory
within every individual of the womb. It existed. Really, Tao was in
the womb, and everything was beautiful, everything was as it should
be. Completely unaware of the world, the child is moving in bliss.
The situation of the child in the womb is just as it is for Vishnu
on his SHESHNAGA. Hindus believe that Vishnu is lying on his couch,
a serpent couch, floating on the ocean of bliss. Really, that is the
child's position in the womb. The child floats. The mother's womb
is just like the ocean. And you may be surprised to know that the
water in which the child floats in the mother's womb has the same
constituents as the ocean water -- very similar, the same salts, everything.
It is ocean water, soothing. And the womb always keeps the right temperature
for the child. The mother may be shivering with cold, that makes no
difference. For the child it is always the same temperature in the
womb. He is warm, blissfully floating, with no worries, no anxieties,
no responsibilities, alone. He is not aware of the mother; mother
doesn't exist for him. This SANSKAR, this imprint, is carried on by
you. This is the basic reality, how you were before you entered society,
and this will be the reality again when you go out of society and
die. You will again be alone.
between these two points of loneliness your life is filled with many
events. But those events are accidental. Deep down you remain alone
because that is your basic reality. Around that aloneness many things
happen: you get married, you become two, then you have children and
you become many. Everything goes on happening -- but just on the periphery.
The deep stratum remains totally alone. That is your reality. You
may call this your ATMA, your essence.
deep solitude this essence has to be recaptured. So when Buddha says
that he has achieved nirvana, really he has achieved this loneliness,
this basic reality. Mahavir says he has achieved KAIVALYA. The very
word KAIVALYA, means loneliness, the alone. Just below the turmoil
of events that aloneness is there. It runs through you like a thread
running in a mala. The beads are apparent, but the thread is not.
But the beads are hanging on the thread, and the beads are many and
the thread is one. Really, the mala is a symbol of this reality. The
thread is the reality and the beads are just the events which go on
hanging on it. And unless you penetrate and come to the basic thread,
you will be in anguish, you will be in suffering.
have a history -- that history is accidental. And you have a nature
-- that nature is non-historical. You are born on a certain date,
to certain parents, in a certain society, in a certain age. You are
educated in a certain way. Then you enter a particular profession,
you fall in love with a woman, you have children. These dramas are
beads, events, history, but deep down you are always alone. And if
you forget yourself completely because of these events you have missed
the very purpose of being here. Then you have lost yourself in the
drama and you have forgotten the actor who was not part of it, who
was just playing the role. All these things are roles.
of this India does not have written histories. Really, it is very
difficult to be certain about when Krishna was born, when he died;
when Ram was born, when he died -- or whether he was ever born or
not or is just a myth. We have not written his history, and this is
the reason: we in India are concerned with the thread and not with
the beads. Really, in the religious world, Christ is the first historical
person, but had he been born in India he would not have been historical.
We in India are always looking for the thread, the beads are irrelevant.
But the West is more oriented towards events, facts -- temporal things
-- than to the essential and the eternal. History is the drama. In
India, we say that Ramas and Krishnas go on being born in every age.
They have been repeated many times before and they will be repeated
many times afterwards. So there is no need to carry on the records.
When they are born is irrelevant. What their being is -- the thread
-- that is the meaningful. So we are not concerned if they were really
historical persons or not, we are not concerned with outer things
that happen to a being, we are concerned with the being itself and
whether anything happens to it or not.
you move into solitude you are moving to the thread; when you move
into solitude, you are moving into nature. If you are really alone,
not even thinking of others, you will feel the world of nature around
you for the first time. You will become attuned to it. Right now you
are attuned to society. If you fall from this attunement to society,
you will be attuned to nature. When the rains come -- they are always
coming but you cannot understand the language of the rains -- they
don't say anything to you, they don't mean anything to you; at the
most some utilitarian thing about water being needed is realized.
So there is some use, but you don't have any dialogue, you cannot
understand the language of the rains, the rain has no personality
for you. But if you leave society for a time and remain in aloneness,
you will start feeling a new phenomenon: the rains will come and they
will talk to you. Then you will feel their moods -- some day the rain
is very angry and some day it is very soothing and loving. Some day
the whole sky is depressed, and some day it is dancing. Some day the
sun rises as if without any will of its own, forced, doing the work;
and some day on its own -- now it is not a work but a play.
will feel all the moods around you. Nature has its own language but
it is silent, and unless you are silent you cannot understand it.
first layer of attunement is with society, the second layer of attunement
is with nature, and the third layer, the deepest, is with Tao or DHARMA.
That is the pure existence. Then the tree, then the rains, then the
clouds, they are also left behind. Then, just existence.... Existence
has no moods. Existence is always the same. Existence is always the
same: always festive, exploding with energy. But one has first to
move from society to nature -- then from nature to existence. When
you are attuned with existence you are totally alone, but this aloneness
is different from that of the child in the womb. The child is alone,
but it is not that he is really alone, he is unaware of anything else.
He is enclosed in darkness, that's why he feels alone. The whole world
exists around him but he is not aware of it. His aloneness is that
of ignorance. When you become consciously silent, one with existence,
your aloneness will not be surrounded by darkness, it will be surrounded
the child in the womb the world is not, because he is unaware. For
you the world will not be, because the world and you have become one.
you reach the deepest being you are alone again because the ego is
lost. The ego is given by society. It can persist a little even when
you are in nature although it will not be as much as it is in society.
When you move alone, your ego starts disappearing -- because it is
always in relationship. Look at this phenomenon: with every individual
your ego changes. If you are talking to your servant, look inside,
look at the ego, see how it is. If you are talking to your friend,
look within, see how the ego is. You are talking to your beloved,
look within, see whether the ego is or is not. If you are talking
to an innocent child, look within -- the ego will not be there because
it will be stupid to be an egoist with an innocent child. You will
feel that this would be stupid, so while playing with children you
become a child. The child doesn't know the language of ego. And being
egoistic with a child you will look awkward. So when you play with
children they pull you down. They bring you back to your own childhood.
When you are talking with a dog, or playing with a dog, the ego that
the society has given to you cannot exist because with a dog there
is no question of ego. If you are walking with your dog -- a very
beautiful and costly dog -- and someone crosses the street, even the
dog seems to give you ego. But the dog is not giving you ego, it is
the man who is passing. You become straight, you feel elated because
you have a very beautiful dog and the man looks jealous.
ego is there. If you move into a forest the ego disappears. Hence
the insistence of all religions to move, at least for a time, into
the world of nature.
sutra is simple: ABIDE IN SOME PLACE ENDLESSLY SPACIOUS -- on some
hilltop from where you can see endlessly, from where the vision never
comes to any end. If you can see endlessly and there is no end to
your vision, the ego will dissolve. Ego needs limits, boundaries.
The more defined the boundaries, the easier it is for the ego to exist.
IN SOME PLACE ENDLESSLY SPACIOUS, CLEAR OF TREES, HILLS, HABITATIONS.
THENCE COMES THE END OF MIND PRESSURES.
is very subtle. You can live on a hilltop where there is no one, but
if you can see a cottage deep down in the valley you will start talking
with that cottage, you will be in relationship with it -- the society
has come. You don't know who lives there, but someone lives there,
and that becomes the boundary -- you will start dreaming about who
lives there and your eyes will search each day to see who lives there.
The cottage will become a symbol of humanity. So the sutra says WITHOUT
HABITATIONS -- even without trees, because it has been known that
people who live alone start talking with trees. They make friendships,
they create a dialogue. You cannot understand the difficulty of a
man who has gone to be lonely. He wants someone so he will say "Hello"
to the tree and "How are you?" And trees are beings. If
you are really honest, they will start replying, there will be a response.
So you can create a society.
meaning is this: be in some place and be alert that you don't create
a society again. You may start tending a tree, loving a tree. You
may feel that the tree is feeling thirsty so you should bring some
water -- you have started a relationship and with a relationship you
are not alone. So this is the emphasis: move to such a place but have
it in your mind that you are not going to create any relationship.
Leave all relationship and the world of relationship behind, and be
alone there. In the beginning it is going to be very difficult because
your mind is created by society. You can leave society but where will
you leave the mind? The mind will follow you like a shadow. The mind
will haunt you. The mind will start torturing you. Faces will come
in your dreams -- they will try to pull you. You will try to meditate
but thoughts will not cease. You will start thinking of your house,
you will start thinking of your wife, of your children. It is human.
it does not happen to you only -- it has happened to Buddha and to
Mahavir. It has happened to everyone. Even a Buddha is bound to think
of Yashodhara during six long years of loneliness. In the beginning,
when the mind was following him, he must have been sitting under a
tree pretending to meditate, and Yashodhara must have followed him.
He loved that woman. And he must have felt guilty because he had left
her -- and without saying anything to her. Nowhere is it mentioned
that he thought about Yashodhara, but I say he must have thought of
her. It is so human; it is so natural. To think that he never thought
again of Yashodhara would be very inhuman and would not be fair to
Buddha. Only by and by, after a long struggle, would he have been
able to throw off the mind.
mind will persist because it is nothing but society -- society internalized.
Society has entered into you -- that is your mind. You can escape
from society, the outer reality, but the inner will follow you.
times Buddha must have been talking with Yashodhara, with his father,
with the small child he left behind. The face of his child must have
followed him. It was there in his mind when he left. The night he
left he went into Yashodhara's room, just to see the child for the
last time. The child was only one day old. Yashodhara was sleeping
and the child was clinging to her breast. He looked at the child.
He wanted to take the child into his hands because this was his last
opportunity. He had not touched him yet and now he might never return
so there would be no meeting. He was leaving the world. He wanted
to touch and kiss the child but then he became afraid because if he
took the child up in his hands, Yashodhara might be awakened. Then
it would be very difficult for him to leave -- she would start weeping
and crying. He had a human heart. It was beautiful that he thought
of it: that if she started crying it would be very difficult for him
to leave. Then all that he had created in his mind -- that this world
was useless and futile -- would disappear. He would not be able to
see Yashodhara crying. He loved that woman. So he left. He moved out
of the room without making any noise.
man could not leave Yashodhara and the child easily. No one could.
When he was begging it was bound to come to his mind -- his palace
and everything. He was a beggar of his own accord. The past would
persist, it would hammer the mind again and again, "Come back."
Many times he would think, "I have made a mistake." It is
bound to be so. Nowhere is this recorded and sometimes I think about
making a diary about what happened to Buddha's mind during those six
years -- a diary about what happened to his mind, what was going on.
will follow like a shadow wherever you go. So it is not going to be
easy. It has never been easy for anyone. It will be a long struggle
to make yourself again and again alert; again and again to be a witness;
again and again not to fall a victim. And to the very last the mind
follows. Unless you are desperate, unless you feel that you are incurable,
that nothing can be done, the mind will go on haunting you. It will
try in every way. It will create fantasies, reveries, dreams; it will
create all types of allurements, seductions. It is written in the
lives of all the seers that Satan comes, the Devil comes, to seduce.
No one comes -- only your mind. Your mind is the only Devil and no
one else. It will try in every way. It will say to you, "I will
give you the whole world, come back." It will make you depressed,
"You are a fool -- the whole world is enjoying and you have come
to this hilltop. You are mad. All this religious stuff is humbug,
come back. Look, the whole world is not insane and they are enjoying."
And the mind will give such beautiful pictures of everyone who is
enjoying and the whole world will be more attractive to you than ever.
All that you have left behind will pull you backwards.
is the basic struggle. And this is just because the mind is a mechanism
of habits, of mechanical persistence. On the hilltop the mind will
feel like hell -- nothing is good there, everything is wrong. The
mind will create negativity all around you, "What are you doing
here? Have you gone mad?" The world that you have left behind
will become more and more beautiful to your eyes and the place that
you are in will become more and more ugly. But if you persist and
you remain aware that this is what the mind is doing, this is what
the mind is bound to do, and if you don't get identified with the
mind, a moment comes when the mind leaves you, and with it all the
pressures. When the mind leaves you, you are unburdened, because it
is the only burden. Then there is no worry, no thought, no anxiety,
you have entered the womb of existence. Unworried, you float. A deep
silence explodes within you.
sutra says, THENCE COMES THE END OF MIND PRESSURES. In such solitude,
in such loneliness, one thing more has to be remembered: the crowd
exerts a deep pressure on you, whether you know it or not.
after working on animals, scientists have come to a very basic law.
They say that every animal has a certain space as his territory. If
you enter that space then the animal becomes tense and he will attack
you, Every animal has a certain space around him. He will not allow
anybody to enter, because the moment someone enters, he feels the
pressure. You hear many birds singing in the trees. You don't know
what they are doing. Scientists say now, after years of study, that
whenever a bird is singing in the trees he is doing many things. One,
he is calling for his girlfriend. Another, he is alerting all the
male competitors that this is his territory -- don't enter it. And
if someone enters the territory a fight will ensue. And the girlfriend
will just wait and see who wins, because whoever gets the territory
will get her/ She will just wait, and the one who wins will stay there
and the one who is defeated will have to leave. By many means every
animal creates territory: by sound, by singing, by body odor. No other
competitor should enter that territory.
may have seen dogs pissing all around. Scientists say that they create
their territory by pissing. The dog will go and piss on this pole
and on that pole. He will not piss on one place -- why? You can do
it on one place, why move so much? He is creating territory. His urine
has a particular odor and with it he creates a territory. No one should
enter, it is dangerous. He lives secluded in his own territory, master
are many studies going on. They have tried putting many animals in
one cage with all their needs fulfilled -- better than they can fulfil
them themselves in a forest. But they go mad because they don't have
space. When someone is always around they are tense, afraid, ready
to fight. This constant readiness to fight gives such tensions that
there heart failures or they go mad. Animals even commit suicide because
the pressure becomes so much. And many abnormalities develop which
are never found in the wild state. Monkeys in the wild are totally
different. When caged in a zoo they start behaving abnormally. In
the beginning it was thought that it was the bondage that was creating
the problem. Now it is known that it is not the bondage. If you give
them the proper space that they need in a cage they are happy. Then
there is no problem. But they have an intrinsic feeling of space.
When someone enters that space, pressure comes to their minds. Their
minds start to be tense, strained; they cannot sleep right, they cannot
feed right, they cannot love right.
of these studies, scientists now say that the whole of humanity is
going crazy and mad because of too much over-population. The pressure
is so great. You are never left alone: in the train, in the bus, in
the office, everywhere, crowds and crowds. Man also has a need of
space, to be left alone. But there is no place, you are never alone.
When you come to your home, your wife is there, the children are there,
and the relatives keep on coming. And they still think that the guest
is God! You are already crazy because the pressure is too much all
around you. You cannot say to anyone, "Leave me alone."
If you say to your wife, "Leave me alone," she will get
angry, "What do you mean?" She has been waiting for you
the whole day. Mind needs space to be relaxed.
sutra is really beautiful and very scientific. THENCE COMES THE END
OF MIND PRESSURES.
you move alone on a solitary hilltop you have space all around you,
endless space. The pressure of the crowd, the pressure of others around
you, leaves you. You will sleep more deeply. You will have a different
quality of awakening in the morning. You will feel free. An inner
pressure circle is not there. You will feel unimprisoned, unfettered.
is good. But we have become so addicted to crowds that only for a
few days -- three or four days -- will you feel good, then the desire
will arise to go again to the crowd. Every holiday you go on, you
want to come back after three days. Because of the pattern, the habit,
you feel useless. Alone, you feel useless, alone you cannot do anything,
and even if you do something, no one will know about it, no one will
see you doing it, no one will appreciate it. You cannot do anything
alone because all your life you have been doing something for others.
You feel useless.
remember, if you ever try this solitary madness, drop the idea of
utility. Be useless. Only then can you be alone. Because really, utility
has been forced on your mind by society. Society says, "Be of
some utility. Don't be useless." Society want you to be an economic
unit, a thing, efficient, utilitarian. Society doesn't want you to
be just a flower. No, even if you are a flower then you must be worth
being sold. Society needs you to be in the market, you must have some
utility. Only then are you of use, otherwise not. Society goes on
preaching that use is the goal of life, the purpose of life. This
am not saying be useless. I am saying that this use is not the goal.
You have to live in society, to be useful to it, but to remain capable
of being useless at any moment. That capacity must be retained otherwise
you become a thing and not a person. When you move into solitariness,
aloneness, this will become a problem. You will feel yourself useless.
have been working with many people. Sometimes I suggest that they
go for three weeks or three months into total loneliness, silence.
And I tell them that after seven days they will want to come back
and their mind will find all the reasons for not being there so that
they can come back. I tell them not to listen to those arguments and
to make it a point that for the time they have decided upon they will
not leave. They say to me that they are going of their own will, so
why should they leave? I tell them that they don't know themselves.
This will not be there for more than three to seven days; afterwards
they will long to return, because society has become alcoholic, it
is an intoxicant. In sober moments you can think about being alone,
but when you are alone, within three days you will think, "What
am I doing?" Remember, use is for society. Society uses you and
you use society. This is a reciprocal relationship.
life is not for use. It is non-utilitarian, purposeless, it is a play,
a celebration. So when you move into solitariness to do this technique,
be prepared from the very beginning that you are going to be useless,
and enjoy it, don't feel sad about it. You cannot conceive of what
arguments the mind will bring. You will say, "The world is in
such trouble and you are sitting in silence here. Look what is happening
in Vietnam and what is happening in Pakistan and what is happening
in China; and your country is dying, there is no food, there is no
water. What are you doing here meditation? What is the use? Will it
bring socialism to the country?" Mind will bring beautiful arguments;
mind is the great arguer. It is the Devil -- it will try to persuade
you, it will convince you that you are wasting time. But don't listen
to it. From the very beginning be prepared, "I am going to waste
time. I will not be of any use. I will simply enjoy being here."
don't be concerned with the world. The world goes on. It is always
in trouble. It has been always in trouble and it will remain always
in trouble. That is the way of the world. You cannot do anything so
don't try to be a great world reformer, a revolutionary, a messiah.
simply be yourself and enjoy your solitariness, just like a rock or
a tree or a river. Useless! What is the use of a rock just lying there
under the rains, under the sun, under the stars? What is the use of
this rock? No use -- the rock enjoys itself being that way. Just be
a rock. There are rock gardens in Japan, in Zen monasteries; they
make rock gardens particularly for this. There are no trees in the
garden, just sand and rock. A solitary rock, just sits there, and
the master says to the disciple, "Go, and be just a rock, just
like that rock. Don't be bothered about the world. That rock remains
there whatsoever happens to the world. It is not worried. It is always
you are really prepared to be useless, you cannot be solitary, you
cannot be in solitude. And once you know the depth of it you can come
back to society. You must come back because solitariness is not a
style of life -- it is just a training. It is not a way of life, it
is just a deep relaxation to change the perspective. It is just falling
out of step with society to have a look at yourself, who you are,
alone. So don't think that this is a style of life. Many have made
it a style of life. They are in error. They are absolutely in error.
They have made a medicine food. It is not a style of life, it is just
medicinal. You fall out for a time being just to have a perspective,
a distance, to see what you are and what society is doing to you.
When you are out of it, you can have a better look. You can observe.
Without being concerned, without being in it, you can become an observer
from the hilltop, you can become a witness. You are so far away. Unprejudiced,
undisturbed, you can look.
note it, this is not a way of life. I am not saying leave the world
and become hermits somewhere in the Himalayas -- no. But sometimes
leave, relax, be useless, be alone, exist like a rock, be independent,
free from the world, be a part of nature -- and you will be rejuvenated,
reborn. Then come back and move in society and in the crowd again.
And try to carry that beauty, that silence that happened to you when
you were alone. Now carry it, don't lose contact with it. Move deep
into the crowd but don't become a part of it. Let the crowd be there
outside you -- you remain alone.
when you become capable of being alone in the crowd, you have achieved
real aloneness. It is easy to be alone on a hilltop. The whole of
nature helps you, and nothing is a barrier. To be back in the market-place,
in the shop, in the office, in the family, and to remain alone --
that is an achievement. Then it is something you have achieved and
it is not just accidental, something that happened because of the
hills. Now the quality of consciousness has changed. So remain alone
in the crowd. The crowd will be there outside but don't allow it to
enter in. Protect whatsoever you have gained. Defend it, don't allow
it to be disturbed. And whenever you feel that the feeling has become
dull, that you are missing it, that society has disturbed it, that
the dust has gathered around, that the fresh spring is no longer fresh,
that it is polluted -- move again. Fall out of society to renew it,
to make it alive again. Then come back and move in the crowd. And
then a moment will come when that original spring will remain fresh
and no one will be able to pollute it or contaminate it. Then there
is no need to move anywhere.
this is just a technique, not a style of life. Don't become a monk,
don't become a nun, don't move to a monastery to live there forever.
That is nonsense. If you live forever in a monastery you will never
be able to know whether you have attained what you have attained,
or whether the monastery has just given it to you. It may be accidental,
not essential. The essential has to be tested. The essential has to
be set against society; it has to be brought to the touch-stone. And
when it never breaks, when you can depend on it, when nothing can
change it, then it has become a crystallization.